Tuesday, 28 May 2013

Let me tell you a few home truths about me.

I am paranoid
I am low
I am pathetic
I am lonely

I am lousy
I am miserable
I am ugly
I am a twat

I am fat
I am healthy
I am 'normal'
I am fine

To everyone else anyway
Makes out that what I say
Is just a lie

I can guarantee
You haven't met anyone else
More worthless
Than I

I can promise you
You'll meet me
Hate me
And then give up on me

If I met me
I would too
I'd claw at my brain
To get me out

You will try to help
I will rebel
I will push you
Right away

But I am needy
I am clingy
I am idiotic
I am worth shit

Because what you see
On the outside
Is not the torment
In my head

I will sit there
Silent and mute
As you prompt me
I withdraw

I think you hate me
I will panic
Hurt myself
To stop my head

I am a shadow
I am a limpet
I am a spot
That just won't go

I'm indecisive
I'm a pain
I'm a nuisance
I'm insane

I am bruised
I am hollow
I am broken
I am tired

I am a flashback
I am your worst fear
I am a nightmare
I am dust.